Crushing Rejection


BLOG # 18

(Excerpt from W.A.Vega, “Through Weak Eyes”)

Having tackled difficult topics in previous writings, I felt adequately prepared to confront the theme of this book. I was therefore surprised, as I began writing, to experience the familiar downward spiral this topic induced.  You see, this theme wasalso a recurring pattern in my life since early childhood.  It was so deeply embedded in my soul, that I often felt trapped in its stifling grip.

By God’s grace, I’ve experienced success in many areas, even though I unknowingly conceded to this enemy.  I, therefore, subconsciously weighed every choice and outcome through its distorted lenses. Not surprisingly, there were many seasons when its oppressive sting assaulted me.  And with inadequate defenses of my own, that brought temporary relief, at best, I needed help. Help that could only come from God.  I desperately hungered for freedom from this internal antagonist once and for all.  So, I cried out to the Lord, and kept running to Him. Until my final cry, became the sound of a victorious warrior.

As I took the warrior’s stance against this slithering shadow, the Holy Spirit led me to Leah’s history in the Bible.  Even though already familiar with this biblical account, I devoured it as if seeing it for the first time.  Keep in mind, that while this writing is fiction, it is based on historical realities as described in Genesis twenty-nine through fifty.

One of my favorite lines of my fictional interpretation is in Chapter 15.  It’s when Leah finally gives up her struggle for Jacob’s love and affection and decides to praise God.

She says: “…As much as I love Jacob, I no longer want him, I just want to praise my God for all that He has done. His love is more than enough.This is no longer about my purpose or Jacob’s for that matter.  It’s about God’s purposes and His only. My purpose is to praise Him…”

Just as Leah became free to fulfill God’s purposes when she chose to focus on praising Him (and named her fourth son, Judah, meaning praise), I’m also free to become all that God has planned for me. (Jeremiah 29:11)

Thankfully, God has transformed my eyes to see through His; to see His sovereignty; to see hope that is only found in Him; to see His ultimate plan and purpose for good; to see that, “What the enemy meant for evil, God meant for good.” (Genesis 50:20).

This conquered adversary and the theme of this remarkable story is rejection.

  I’m delighted to say, that it’s finally a defeated foe in my life as I cleave to God’s redemptive grace.  

“Beyond Religion ~ Through Weak Eyes ~ The Adventures of A. Soul, Volume 3, is therefore not written through old, weak lenses of rejection, but through new and vibrant lenses of redemption. Hallelujah!